Before I dive into indecision, I have to confess that I was milking my H day for as long as possible because unlike some bloggers, I am a shameless attention whore. That being said, we can now move onto 'I'. I'm pretty sure that I'm running out of grace (non-posting) days so I really have to get a move on!
I may be the most indecisive person I know. It isn't that I am afraid of making decisions. I'm perfectly capable of doing so. But often times I simply prefer not to. What I mean is if it isn't important to me, I'm content to go with the flow of whoever is directing the traffic. For example Darling Husband says I'm taking your out for dinner, where would you like to go? My answer 'where ever you want Love'. Why? Because I honestly don't care where we go, mostly, as long as we are out together.
I tend to think this makes me easier to deal with because I'm so flexible, but he more often than not finds it really irritating. Wow, another 'I' word....hmmmm. He simply wants an answer rather than having to read my mind. And it doesn't matter to him that my answer was completely honest and it really doesn't matter to me where we go eat. He has accused me of being incapable of making a decision which as I mentioned simply isn't true.
On the decisions that do matter to me I'm still indecisive but for an entirely different reason. On the 'important' decisions I spend a long time thinking about the 'what ifs'. Because I want to be absolutely sure that I'm making a proper decision. So every scenario that I can conceive plays out. Sometimes this takes seconds, sometimes minutes, and sometimes days. And those around me find it equally 'i'nfuriating. Probably this is the same reason that I've never been more successful in my work life. I've never been able to settle on one speciality. Because well, what if I change my mind and don't like it?
My resume reads like a swiss army knife. I can do all sorts of different things but at some point even a swiss army knife has to stop because after all what use is a 50 pound swiss army knife?